forget about me

we had a particularly taxing day/night at the office yesterday so i picked up some pizza for my staff.  at the counter, i requested the cashier to have two slices taken out of the box and separately wrapped as, instead of the usual coins, that was what i wanted to give the two watch-your-car boys who assisted me at the parking slot.

before boarding the car, i handed the pizza to the kids and what happened next was they excitedly ran to the pavement to partake of their food right away, leaving me to back off the tiny, visibility-poor, perpendicular-to-the-road parking by myself.  happy-sad, isn't it?  <sigh>...


last night on my way to my parents' place, i was vacillating whether i should stop by the grocery store along the way to pick up a handful of items or just buy stuff the following day at the store near my place.  i ended up dropping by the store at my parents' area and what do you know, i've been inside just a short while when i hear the introvoys' 'will i survive' on the radio.  ouch!  i haven't heard that song in a looooong time and suddenly there it was unexpectedly giving me a tinge of a heartache  : }

the song is memorable because it was one of the songs a former boyfriend used to sing to me over the phone and during his visits to the house during courtship and after.  hearing it again brought back bittersweet memories of a promising relationship that was not given the chance to prosper.  suffice it to say that  timing was off then.

nevertheless, it remains one of my favorite failed relationships (ha-ha, is there such a thing?).  first, it gave me some of the sweetest memories, as in, the guy did the sweetest things.  second, it was unusual in that the relationship came to be through the toss of a coin (i like to say he won me in a coin-toss).

the guy was calling and sending letters and coming over and i was ambivalent about being his girl or not.  now, i do not believe in prolonged courtships.  i believe a suitor will not ever behave the same way as a boyfriend.  a suitor is a suitor, he's trying to win you, of course he'd be mr. patient, mr. understanding, mr. thoughtful, mr. everything-you-could-ever-hope-for.  a boyfriend already bagged you, he'd be himself, ha-ha.

with that in mind, i decided to end the agony of this suitor by telling him i was having mixed feelings about where he stood as far as my heart was concerned and i didn't want him and me to be wasting precious time so i said we'll let fate decide.  i told him we'll toss a coin and if it comes out this way he'd stop courting; if it comes out the other way i'd be his girl.  he thinks awhile then agrees on one condition -> that he be the one to toss the coin.  no problem with me.

i get a coin, he checks whether it's not one of those 'indecent proposal' coins which have the same side, then proceeds to toss.  guess what, he wins!  i was in a state of ultra-mild shock asking how he was able to do it.  he explains something about trajectory and physics and i must admit i was impressed (shallow me!) and therefore felt happily duped ; )

that relationship is a decade-and-a-half past and i am surprised that i am looking back at it now with all these positive feelings inside me.  yup, there is such a thing as getting over and moving on  : )

5 Ws and an H(Who, What, Where, When, Why, How)

WHO do you love most?

- my parents

WHAT makes you happy?

- being with loved ones, acts of kindness, selfless deeds, quality output, initiative, resourcefulness, bright ideas, encouraging words, pleasant surprises, nice stuff, free stuff, good buys, good shots, jokes, light plays, melted ice cream, vanilla milkshake, chocolates, leche flan, really fresh tuna sushi/maki with just the right dash of wasabi, estrel's caramel cake, starbucks chocolate cake, sugarhouse cashew toffee, red ribbon brazo de mercedes, goldilocks sans rival (ha-ha, nag-roll call ba ng brands...), newly-changed sheets, a good night's sleep, no-rush showers, my garden, my miniatures, clean air, fresh breeze, magazines with nice pictures and light articles, shades of blue, smiles, hugs, just-checking-how-you-are calls, the look of love -> grabe, dami pa... babaw ko : }

WHERE are you most at peace?

- in my room... at church...

WHEN did you last say "I love you"?

- last week,  to my mom : )

  we were driving back from atlantic city, 'because you loved me' played on the radio.  i said, 'muts, song ko 'yan for you...'  my mom and my aunts closely listened to the lyrics and were touched.  (an aunt even told me later they were teary-eyed.)  when the song ended, my mom turned to me and said, 'i love you...'  wholeheartedly, i replied, 'i love you, too...'  sweet no?  : )

WHY do you pray?

to feed my soul... to thank God... to ask for something (uh-oh)

HOW do you want to be remembered?

that i made wherever i was a better place somehow

questions and answers

1. Were you smiling when you woke up this morning?

- don't remember... ugh!  first question and suddenly i feel old, ha-ha

2. When was the last time you met someone new?

- ~5 hours ago... we bumped into my friend's friend at the restaurant and he introduced us...

3. When did you last eat pizza?

- hmmm, can't exactly remember when but within this month... tomorrow, too...

4. Do you drink beer?

- i've tried it once just to taste it but i haven't gone back

5. Do you wash your own clothes?

- yup

6. Are you any good at poker?

- ooops, i haven't played the game

7. What do you want more than anything?

- good health and happiness for me and my loved ones

8. Are you tired?

- more of very sleepy... i haven't had a decent sleep since friday!!!  (uh-oh, it's already friday again.  a week now?!  yikes!)

9. Besides your bed, what is your favorite thing in your room?

- the miniature food items in my little blue see-through cabinet

10. Pepsi or Coke?

- neither

11. Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?

- cheated as in fallen in love with someone else, no; cheated as in one-night-stand, maybe...

12. Do you enjoy piercings and tattoos?

- hmmm... not sure about enjoy but i do have two holes per ear and i've thought of having a ring tattooed on my finger (haven't come around to doing it though)

13. Taco Bell or McDonald's?

- not a fan of either... but if i really have to choose then i'll settle for mcdo

14. Are you restless?

- i don't think so...

15. Is your computer a desktop or a laptop?

- laptop... but right now i'm using my mom's desktop.  the reason i'm still awake is i'm checking her mail connection... she's been unable to connect to her ISP since yesterday : }

16. How many friendster views do you have?

- wait, i'll check... ok... it's 48 since 1/1/2008...

17. Want to be a prince/princess?

- nope... the ladies-in-waiting would be nice but then i don't want bodyguards...

18. Do you believe dreams come true?

- yup

19. Last song you heard?

- all by myself, ha-ha... just this afternoon at the office... an officemate dropped by, we were starting to talk about parting and separation, then the song played on the radio... how appropriate, ha-ha

20. Do you like Batman?

- i'm not a big fan

21. Who is in the room with you?

- no one

22. What are you wearing on your feet?

- slippers

23. What was the last thing you ate?

- hmmm, does something you take with a straw count?  if it does, it's white chocolate dream.  otherwise, it's fried chicken...

24. What were you doing before this?

- supposedly driving home to my place, feeling sleepy, settling instead for my parents' place...

25. What is the closest item near you that is blue?

- a book

26. In your opinion what is the weirdest thing listed on

- ooops, sorry... dunno the site...

27. What do you prefer ym or msn?

- i'm not into chatting but the few times i did it's been on ym...

28. What is your favorite website?

- dunno whether google would count... picasa...

29. Whose house were you at last night?

- my parents'

30. What do you wear more, jeans or sweatpants?

- i rarely wear sweatpants...

31. What is the last movie you watched?

- either omen or da vinci code (ugh!  so long ago!)

32. What do you currently hear right now?

- the ticking of the clock behind me...

33. When did you last buy a new pair of pants?

- november... i didn't really buy it... my mom gifted me with a jacket that was somewhat small -> i went to have it exchanged at the store but they didn't have my size so i had to find a replacement item

34. Where's your favorite place to be?

- wherever my loved ones are...

34. Have you ever heard of the band Our Lady Peace?

- nope.  are they famous?  where?

35. Where do you sleep?

- what do you mean?  on a bed... either at my place or my parents'

36. Where do you shop the most?

- no store in particular... i like checking out the surplus shop though...

37. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?

- it's my sister's night shirt

38. Coach Purse or NFL game tickets?

- purse, not necessarily coach

39. Where was your default pic taken?

- my grandparents' place

40. Why did you pick your background?

- shades of my favorite color (blue)

41. Are you happy with where you are?

- happy : )

-> but could be happier... ; )

42. Do you believe in love at first sight?

- yup

43. Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?

- yup

44. Do you believe that you can change someone?

- possible but could be hard for both... why go through the hassle?  better to find someone you wouldn't have to change...

45. What are you going to do after you do this survey?

- re-check my mom's e-mail connection then go to sleep... : D