the exception

sometime in your life
you meet someone
who shatters your resolve
breaks all your rules
gives you a taste of heaven
and drags your soul to hell

the deal

if you are already committed or are not yet ready to commit, then don't bother me.

i neither share nor take away.

and my sights are set on forever.

don't blow it away

i like wearing dresses and skirts...  i find them more comfortable than pants...  girlie-girl, too...  : )

the thing is, sometimes you have to contend with the wind...  : }

one time i had a flight...  normally, from previous experience, at least, you'd enter the plane through a tube, right?  very uneventful...  well, this flight to a province, the passengers entered and exited the plane by walking on the tarmac...  uh-oh...  it was windy!!!  i had a hard time keeping modest...  : O

another time i was out in a balloon, above-the-knee, empire-style sundress...  the weather was fine...  and then guess what, a gust of wind suddenly blew my dress  ♩ ♪  so high that i could almost see eternity  ♫ ♬...  uuuuhhhh!  :"O

just recently, i was wearing what i thought was a safe dress...  close to the body, a bit long...  so there i was walking and the wind kept on blowing my dress to and fro  ->  no thanks at all to the side slits...  ugh!  i did not take that into consideration...  : }

well, this afternoon, it was rainy and windy...  i put on a body-hugging, ankle-length dress (haha...  gown?) with no slits whatsoever...  hah!  the wind could not do anything with it!  : D

there i was walking and i felt so silly smiling to myself thinking i finally won one over the wind...  hey, hey, hey...  you have to learn your lesson sometime...  \m/

complicating the simple

there is a supposed order to the taking of Holy Communion in the church where i attend mass.  communicants queue pew by pew, front to back, rightmost churchgoer to leftmost.  this is so to have a smooth traffic flow from the time people leave their seats to the time they go back.

well, this evening, the guy to my left, instead of going behind me at the queue, positioned himself in front of me.  then, maybe realizing his mistake and trying to make up somehow, stopped instead of going forward and let *each and every* person in our pew go ahead of him.  the result was that going back to our seats, i had to tread over each and every one of my kneeling seatmates until i reached my spot at the end of the pew...  : }

i dunno.  i was thinking the guy could so easily have corrected his mistake by moving behind me instead of letting everyone else go before him.

sometimes we make simple things complicated  ->  and wreak havoc on an otherwise orderly arrangement...

no shame

we were in an elevator this afternoon going down from the 14th floor to the ground floor.  i was pre-occupied with my phone and every time the elevator doors would open, i'd absent-mindedly walk towards them to exit only to be stopped by my friend who'd exclaim, 'not ground floor yet!'

i'd retreat then the doors would open again and, eyes on my phone, i'd try to exit again and my friend would stop me again.  this happened several times, from the 11th floor up to the 2nd floor.  the other passengers were grinning already.

i dunno but i was more amused than embarrassed... : }

am i too thick-skinned or what? : O

digital fatigue

following up my mom's DSL connection...  i was on the phone with the telco's IVRS for what seemed like forever waiting for an agent to take my call...  the background audio was playing over and over again and i burst out laughing when said *digital recording* seemed to get tired itself (!?)...

at some point, the voice seemed to choke and sounded a bit like a drunken guy:

'Please stayon thline until a rep-sen-tive becomes avaaaailllable to take your co-holll.'

wahaha...  comic relief...  ; p

creating and dissolving

it takes two to create a relationship.  if one party does not allow it to develop, then no matter what effort the other one puts in, nothing will come out.

it, however, takes only one to end a relationship.  the moment one party decides to let go, no matter how the other one holds on, then the relationship is no more.

</3

up and down and up and down... and up

three years ago, i blogged about the aegis song 'luha'...  these were my thoughts then:

     http://maria0cynthia.blogspot.com/2008/09/laughter-is-gone.html

     http://maria0cynthia.blogspot.com/2008/09/timely.html

well, i've been over the song for quite a while now...  i'd hear it and i wouldn't anymore get all squirmy inside...  in fact, i'd break out into a smile and roll my eyes remembering how the song used to affect me so...

then this evening i heard it again...  i was fine until the line:

♩ ♪  at ito ang 'yong tandaan

ako'y masyadong nasaktan  ♫ ♬

->  and remember this

i was really hurt

ugh!  suddenly a heartache  ->  and not from the same guy!  aarrrrgggghhhh!!!

oh, well...  i'm sure this will pass...

' looks like i'm going through the different parts of the song...  i hope i come full circle soonest and end up laughing again...

late discovery

trying to find a certain message and wandered into the Other folder under my facebook Messages.  whoa!  taken aback by what was in there:  quite a number of messages a couple of which are somewhat important.  uh-oh...  i haven't really been clicking that part...  : }

the things we miss when we don't explore around...

If I tagged YOU, it's because I want to know more about YOU. Really.

1. Were you named after anyone? my mom says i was named after cynthia ugalde...  a former beauty queen...  : ) 2. When was the last time you cried? ouch!  just recently...  september 7, 2011...  </3 3. Do you like your handwriting? uhm...  it's ok but it's too big...  : } 4. What is your favorite lunch meat? spam 5. Do you have kids? none 6. If you were another person, would you be friends with you? definitely!  : ) 7. Do you use sarcasm? yup...  very subtly at times you won't even notice...  \m/ 8. Do you still have your tonsils? yes 9. Would you bungee jump? i'd like to try!!! 10. What is your favorite cereal? nesvita, original flavor... 11. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? uhm...  i rarely wear shoes with a shoelace but, yup, i think i do... 13. What is your favorite ice cream? vanilla...  double dutch... 14. What is the first thing you notice about people? complexion (i like them dark)...  teeth...  butt...  : ) 15. Red or pink pink 16. What is your least favorite thing about yourself? i don't bring cash...  hahaha...  my mom is aghast...  : } 17. Who do you miss the most? well, none really at the moment...  but if i'm going to miss someone it has to be the one who loved me best...  ♥ 18. Do you want everyone to complete this list? why not? 19. What color pants and shoes are you wearing? not wearing pants nor shoes right now... 21. What are you listening to right now none...  i like silence... 22. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? blue...  a light shade, not dark...  it's my favorite color... 23. Favorite smells? newly-showered...  natural smells, not perfume... 24. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? oh, someone who so unexpectedly broke my heart  </3 i'm actually taking this quiz to, uhm, lighten up a bit after that call...  : ( 26. Favorite sports to watch? not a sports fan 27. Hair color? black 28. Eye color? black 29. Do you wear contacts? nope 30. Favorite food? here goes (cut and paste from one of my blogs): melted ice cream, vanilla milkshake, chocolates, leche flan, really fresh tuna sushi/maki with just the right dash of wasabi, estrel's caramel cake, starbucks chocolate cake, sugarhouse cashew toffee, red ribbon brazo de mercedes, goldilocks sans rival i also like sinigang na hipon for chocs, i like those with nuts... no raisins, please....  31. Scary movies or happy endings? happy endings!!!  : D 32. Last movie you watched alice in wonderland...  ugh!  it's been a while...  : } 33. What color shirt are you wearing? blue 34. Summer or winter? summer 35. Hugs or kisses? both, please...  oh, ok...  kisses...  ♥ 37. Most likely to respond? dunno 38. Least likely to respond? dunno 39. What book are you reading now? ' haven't read a book in a looooooong while...  : } 40. What is on your mouse pad? esprit logo 41. What did you watch on tv last night? none...  i rarely watch TV...  : } 42. Favorite sound(s)? the sound of silence 43. Rolling stones or beatles? beatles 44. What is the farthest you have been from home? U.S. 45. Do you have a special talent? i love deeply...  i love truly...  i love well...  ♥♥ 46. Where were you born? quezon city 47. Whose answers are you looking forward to getting back? hmmm...  i don't think he's into these quizzes...  : (

true colors

bought tropical grove iced tea, original, pasteurized, natural flavor... product of lassonde, canada... carton says No preservatives No artificial color ingredients however list 'caramel color' hmmm...  i guess that means there are technicalities about what falls under artificial color... i wonder how food would look if no ingredient for coloring's sake was added at all...

car fool

my last two heartbreaks started out with a car. the first one, we were driving along EDSA and the guy suddenly grabbed my hand.  i tried pulling away but i really couldn't flail too much as i was afraid we'd figure in a vehicle collision.  my strength was no match to the guy who was big and, uhm, cute so eventually i gave in. true i was dating but having a boyfriend was farthest from my mind that time as i was supposed to fly to the US with my mom and my aunts the following month.  well, i had to be left behind.  not only did i get into an unexpected relationship that time, i also quite so quickly ended up a bride to an in-a-rush-to-get-married-groom.  talk about whirlwind.  and i guess, you sow a whirlwind, you reap a storm...  : ( the other one was again unexpected.  so this guy and i went out and then close to midnight, supposedly cinderella me wanted to go home.  well, the guy didn't want me to.  i insisted and stood up to walk over to my car.  what does he do?  he blocked the door!  as in, this tall (and dark and handsome, aaww) guy was standing right in front of my car door!  ugh! i didn't want to create a scene so i just kept on begging him to let me in.  he wouldn't. finally i told him my legs are tired and i wanted to sit down.  that was effective, he let me in (but not before offering his lap.  huh?!  no, thank you.). that was not the end of it, however.  the guy this time positioned himself between the open door and the car itself such that i couldn't close the door without squeezing him.  aaarrrrggghhh!!! it seemed like forever that we've been talking and bargaining and my heart bled a bit seeing him hold such uncomfortable squatting position just to keep me from driving off.  i decided to get out of the car and walked him over to the other side of the parking lot.  guess what, he again followed me when i walked back to my car! we had a light moment kidding about walking each other back and forth across the parking lot. my resistance wore out and i eventually ended up his girl that early morn beside my car in the parking lot. the guy promised me the moon and the stars unfortunately the relationship turned out to be more like a meteor.  it disintegrated leaving behind wishes that did not quite come true...  </3 anyway, i was telling a friend i guess i'll have to add a new rule now. it used to be, i won't ride any guy's car anymore.  either we'll bring separate cars or we'll both take public transportation. how about no more walking to cars as well?  as in, dine, say thank you and goodbye then walk away alone.  but i guess you cannot really stop guys from following if they really want to. my friend suggested next time after dinner i'll excuse myself to go to the rest room but proceed instead to my car.  once inside, i'll just call the guy and say goodbye from a very slightly open car window.  wahaha...  paranoid...  but safe...  ; p so guys, ' am blogging this.  if ever i really resort to that, please understand it's not because i lack manners or am weird or insane.  i'm just trying to learn from the lessons of the past.

there are places i remember ; )

i was scheduled to meet a former officemate at gateway mall in cubao yesterday.  now i am a quezon city girl.  i was born and i grew up there, leaving only when i got married after which i transferred to taguig.  well, that was more than a decade ago.

and so i asked my officemate where she wants to meet.

she said at kickers.

me:  you know the place?

officemate:  yes.

me:  you've been there?

officemate:  yes.

me:  ok.  i'll find it.  are there seats there?

officemate:  there's a circular area in front.

ok.  so yesterday i went to gateway and stopped by at the concierge to ask where kickers is.  guess what, they said there's no kickers there!

me:  'really???!!!'

concierge:  'yes, ma'am.'

uh-oh...  i didn't bring my phone...  : }

me:  'is there a store here that sells kickers items?'

concierge:  'you can try rustan's, ma'am...'

ok.  go to rustan's i did.

me:  'do you have kickers here?'

sales assistants ask around then tell me:  'none, ma'am.  kickers is in shangri-la and makati.'

what the....  i was thinking my officemate probably just got the store name wrong so i looked around for a circular area at the mall.  i found one and loitered there awhile.  well, no sight of my officemate.

i decided to look for some other area that could at least pass for round.  i walked over to the escalator praying to God to please let me see my officemate.

guess what, going down the escalator i spotted her leaning against a railing at the floor below.  whoa!  talk about prayers so quickly answered!  God is really good!  : D

my officemate saw me and burst into chuckles going 'sorry, sorry...'

i was like, 'what kickers on earth were you talking  about???!!!'

it turns out her memory somehow faltered and the kickers store she had in mind was actually at some other mall.

well, we found each other somehow so no problem.

we tried out the natural-cut fries with sea salt at wendy's then walked around the mall.

she was looking for an item she said she bought at a gift gate store.

hmmm...  we asked around whether there's gift gate there and were told there's none.

i went, 'i know gift gate is at ali mall.'

my officemate goes, 'let's go there.'

me:  'you sure?  that's far.  i'm not going to go with you back to gateway if we go there.'  (she's going to take public transportation near gateway.)

she said it's ok.

off to ali mall we went.  we stopped by the concierge to ask where gift gate is.

their reply?  there's no gift gate there.

what???!!!  so lightning struck twice???!!!  : O

i went, 'but there used to be?'

concierge:  'that's a long time ago, ma'am.'

wahaha...

♩ ♪  there are places i remember all my life
though some have changed
some forever, not for better
some have gone and some remain  ♫ ♬

; p

inside not out

i had on a red shirt saying

NEW YORK

PARIS

L♥NDON

MILAN

i actually bought it from tacloban as pasalubong for my sister but she found it a bit body-hugging so she gave it back to me...

anyway, an aunt was telling me from a certain angle she thought my shirt print had <toot>... oh...

uhm... that would be a bit too much love if i have that guy's name on my shirt... nah-ah... nope... he remains in my heart (ugh!) but i don't intend to announce that in my clothes...  </3

yes or no

RULES: 1. You can ONLY answer YES or NO. 2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING UNLESS someone messages you or comments and asks. = = = = = 1.  Asked someone to marry you? no 2.  Wished you kissed anyone of your Facebook friends? yes 3.  Been arrested? yes 4.  Slept in until 5pm? yes 5.  Fallen asleep at work/school? yes 6.  Held a snake? no  7.  Ran a red light? yes 8.  Been suspended from school? no  9.  Written off your car/motorbike in an accident? no  10.  Been fired from a job? no  11.  Regretted NOT saying something to someone in your Facebook friends? yes 12.  Sang karaoke? yes  13.  Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? yes  14.  Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? yes 15.  Caught a snowflake on your tongue? yes  16.  Kissed in the rain? yes  17.  Kissed someone you shouldn't? yes 18.  Sang in the shower? yes 19.  Did something you thought you couldn't do? yes  20.  Sat on a rooftop? yes 21.  Got lost? yes  22.  Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? yes  23.  Broken a bone? no  24.  Shaved your head? no 25.  Got handcuffed? no  26.  Got a tattoo? no 27.  Blacked out from drinking? no  28.  Played a prank on someone? yes 29.  Felt like killing someone? no 30.  Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? yes  31.  Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? no 32.  Been in a band/choir? yes 33.  Tripped on mushrooms? no 34.  Donated Blood? no 35.  Eaten alligator meat? no 36.  Joined a marathon? no 37.  Eaten snake and bayawak meat? no 38.  Was grounded? no 39.  Still love someone you shouldn't? yes 40.  Think about the future? yes 41.  Believe in love? YES!!!  >-♥♥->